last post of 0'8

oh, this is going to be my last post in 2008.

sounds rather terminal. like an ending. like a completed chapter of a story.

2008. it's been great. and it's been shitty at the same time.

shitty because i still get tangled up in relationships and rumours.

and great because i got a whole new lot of friends. almost a godsend.

but pity only a few will be in the same class as me next year.

it's ok. from cards to books. the table bbq people must learn how to adapt.

ok, i shall make a resolution which i hope, though not entirely possible that i will not break.

i will not suan anyone and that's including her, anymore.

i took a sharp gasp and tried to retrace those words. but my fingers remained defiantly still.

ok, aftershocks. the final which would be

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

there's the financial crisis and unemployment threats lurking around even in the urban jungle that is Singapore. but 2009 will be something of what i want to call a year to remember.

until then, farewell, 2008.

you just gave me one of the most controversial chapters of my life.

3/1 0'9

I'M IN 3/1 0'9 IF YOU REALLY HAVE TO KNOW.

i bet you really wanted to know.

LOL.

no more 2/2, no more shorts. it's gonna be a new life.

afterlife.

today was great, though not the first part.

i came late for a capella because i was the only fool who didn't know what time to come. maybe 15mins late?! and it doesn't go well with the fact that i don't know music.

the first part was terrible. i was constantly lost at the chorus. (screams irony). then we were told to do revision after ms chai got a whole out of us.

revision was useful. we pulled through the song without looking at the score.

and for the sake of experience, we were told to sing at the porch with teachers and students constantly flitting around us.

then we had lunch together again.

and carey decided not to follow us for bowling.

so there's lucas, gladwin, mingzhen and siewmun. and we went to safra bowling.

and we didn't bowl there. we played asshole for two and a half hours straight.

no one chased us out. they were probably too preoccupied with aiming their three-holed balls into gutters from the looks of it. ._.

yeah, that's mean. but there were some professionals ones though.

tomorrow's new year's eve. i have to start pondering on what resolutions i shall seek to fulfil next year.

there's cutting my hair.

there's getting a B for chinese.

and there's being a better person in terms of character.

the last one is going to stay as a resolution for a long time.

but there may be more. but i'm not telling.

i really wanted to talk about my day in choir. but two things are for sure.

i'm dead beat now and everyone's been pointing at my hair.

it's puffy, it's long, and it's affro except without the perm.

they dig their long fingers into my mop of furry and thick yet light and rough hair.

it's gonna be my new year resolution. to cut my hair before school starts.

there's also the fitting, where guys get to wear the black shirt that camouflages into the black blazer and pants but complementing rather nicely with a silver tie.

and girls'? i think they get to wear custom-made furry gowns where the colours are still rather undecided.

my shoulders are broad according to the tailor. otherwise i would never be able to fit into that rather large shirt.

i'll try to post more tomorrow. still haven't memorised that score.

PS: I like tossing chickens as balls.

boxing day

damn, the school scammed us. so we don't get to know our classes today but 4 days later.

at least they still bothered to wish us merry christmas at the end of that message.

doesn't matter. went out with the table bbq people today for a movie.

YES, man. it's funny and maybe crude, but nowhere near angus thongs and perfect snogging (based on the ad). hey gladwin, i won't mind waiting for or watching the dvd with you or something.

then we went to play cards. and afetr playing cards, we got to see mz cook.

gosh, i even took a video. and there's three different parts just in cutting vegetables. and it's amusing. nothing like a good laugh before school starts.

damn again, it's less than a week away.

it's less than a week away before having to wake up at 6a.m., listening to lectures and doing homework.

someone pinch me. i'm still dreaming.

MERRY CHRISTMAS! 08

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

i decided to colour my post today in different shades because it's christmas!

i think it's gonna be my favourate festival apart from chinese new year. i mean, there's a feast, you get presents, and the family's get to be together.

like how a family should. whole and united. and sometimes, it's not only blood family, but friends whom are treated as family. and it need not be those name calling like kor, jie or mei, it can just be good friends. i like it this way.

and it gives us a chance to look at everyone in a positive light. let us enjoy giving and in giving, revel in its spirit.

it's my happiest christmas so far. but hope it doesn't end here. still hoping that each christmas is better than the previous ones.

and tomorrow's boxing day. but i've opened my presents already. yield isn't as good as last year, probably due to financial crisis. but it's ok, some are still pretty good.

like that ABBA disc my parents bought for me. yeah, be surprised, i like ABBA. (:

and tomorrow's also the day we know which class we'll be in. hmm....i'm wondering which class friends will be next year. and it's gonna be fine even if i end up same class as her. it's gonna be ok. keep our status quo. or smile?

that's for next year. which is barely a week away.

foorprints in the sand.

footprints in the sand. i like the name alot. but the song's not bad too.

Above my head, the seagulls soared, their wings gliding along the salty sea breeze. The sun shone brightly, radiating rays of white light that glisten on the surface of the sea. Palm trees, with their thin, reed-like leaves swayed to the rhythmn of the winds, while at the same time, cast shades which shelter me from the sweltering heat.

However, it was the sand beneath my feet that I was captivated by. For it was neither man-made nor synthehic, unlike the roads and pavements connecting the cities. Like the crystal clear waters of the sea, the sand was pure and whole. As the sand sifts through the gaps between my toes, it sent a tingle down my spine. Tickling me, cajoling with me, bringing up memories of my youth days.

I could still feel those young vibes in my heart, thumping ever so loudly. The joy and the sweetness of it all! Childishly, I hobbled towards the sea and poked my fingers into the cool calm waters, sending ripples slowly and gently back to the sea. A reflection of myself ebbs away with the waves swiftly yet I caught it in that instance.

I was old.

The greying temples along that shrivelled pair of ears. Wrinkles were creased into my skin, not unlike cracks on the grounds of earthquakes. The diluted brown eyes were what left of eyes which used to twinkle with youth and vigour. Drooping eyelids and and sagging cheeks had all to remind me once again that I was a seventy-six year old grandpa with numbered days to live.

this is an excerpt of a yet to be written story entitled Once upon a time. if only i had the time and the patience to continue from this or start from somewhere else.

Triple sighs. I haven't been feeling so good.

And in case of any miscommunication out there, i don't have anything against {inserts name}. it's just that after everything, i don't think me and her can ever get to be the best of friends.

this should clear up the rumour/misunderstanding that i hate her or i think she is a person with any negative terms attached.

brr. i hate how all these things happen in the first place and why people are inclined to believe that something done, no matter how insignificant or far-fetched has all the ill-intentions against them and such.

it's the stigma of all these insercurities we are suffering from because we live in a world where peole backstab one another or have multiple miscommunications because we barely have enough trust for ourselves, let alone for other people.

and it's a vicious cycle. the world is moving too quickly. we must always be adaptable and/or ruthless to survive. that's why we never had the time to sit down and talk about our feelings towards certain issues. and never had the chance to clear ourselves of these insercurities we are ashamed of.

but maybe someone had saw it coming and that person brought along a fantastic solution to this problem: counsellors.

as i said, i never did once regret talking to kelda chan.

but then again, people start trying to link the notion of counsellors to that to a doubting of your mental stability?

is that person crazy, why did he go and talk to a counsellor?

disclaimer: i'm referring to that not-so-awesome world people sometimes think about when they are feeling emotionally down and not that perfect world with perfect people when your spirits are up and ready.

but in case, you're wondering, i'm not emo-ing. i'm jut reflecting on certain issues that in my head no matter what i'm feeling.

and before i say goodbye, MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE!

acapella no.2

"I frankly think acapella is going to give me some shit for a while , not that i regret joining . But damn right , it's a tough call for someone who can't count rhythm to save her life."

guess what carey said is right.

a cappella is not gong to be a smooth ride. and it's not only her that can't save her own life. the sec 2 a cappella people are in for a real rocky ride.

memorise the score which barely registers into my head. it's going to take hours.

and you've been talking too much, jinhu.

relax, it must be separation. i haven't been in contact for a long while now.

and it scares me to know that i do go crazy in the presence of people.

talking too much and blabbing my life away. how much has been revealed and what are the consequences.

consequences. the aftermath of any event.

published thoughts.

i had an inspiration from many things which i heard during the past few days.

because in our world, there's only an imaginary line separating black from white, right from wrong. the rest remains to be defined.

acapella no.1

today was the first acapella practice. fun.

because there wasn't any stress from anyone in particular and the chording and blending is all great.

and sadly, the only sore thumb that stood up is me. no knowledge of music and trying to grapple with all the musical complications like weird timing. and always constantly be flat. always.

this love. sounds great. and maybe would sound better if i can stop getting lost.

i had 10 mins to buy long pants before rushing for lunch.
then i ate lunch with carey, sebestian, lucas and jesslynn. erica went to meet her friend. it was rather quiet, with the exception of sebestian.

train-ed home with lucas and slacked around the neighbourhoods for 3 hours talking crap. haha. rather enjoyable. but had to remind myself not to get too carried away. which was another problem of mine.

there isn't enough time to correct all those nasty habits, problems, inhibitations and attitude before the holidays end.

guess it's going to be a rocky road ahead.

debate

WHO WANTS TO JOIN DEBATE AND THINK YOU ARE GREAT AT TALKING?

putting up this free advert for the debating club. trainings are on saturday starting from 3rd jan. 10-1.

we need people. and it's seriously a great way to spend time.

for those people who wonder why i quit debate last time, considering my current fervent attitude towards it, it was because i would be wasting my time listening to other people talk while i twiddle thumbs and think of how to explain to the teacher why i didn't do my homework.

because i didn't have enough time? bullshit. you were just listening....

burnt saturdays. there's the chinese tuiton immediately after.

melaka 16-18dec

perhaps 15dec wasn't the luckiest day of my life. in the end, the data which i stored in the pc was completely wiped out and there was no way of getting anything out of that ancient machine which restarted endlessly.

shit it. my work was almost completely wiped out if not for the little bit of data which i had in a thumbdrive but it's not 1000 entries, it's just 370 left.

mapled at gladwin's house. haha.

then went to melaka with party of 12. hehe. we jammed up two cars.

no longer carsick and....

crap. don't feel like posting anything anymore.

i feel thouroughly confused. identity crisis. i am who i am. and if u see me going crazy one day, please don't be surprise.

the spicy food there must have addled my brain. i can't think straight or curved anymore, only in zig zaggy lines.....

lvl70 dear arcticed

haha. chiong and chiong and chiong. at least now level 70 le.

arcticed. you did it. now for 3rd job.

and it all went well until the clock struck ten. i was literally ten minutes away from my 3rd job. finsished off gendel's clone and nearly reached sharp cliff 2 to answer those questions.

tossed in bed for an hour before falling asleep. woke up at 7.30 to try my luck.

no, flat in the face and i went to work instead.

and now, even the comp i use to work at broke down on me. and i forgot to save the data. so i'm dead. at least until my uncles come back to se his workplace wrecked by me.

what a life.

quiz one

i think a quiz will fill in one empty void of a post which i would spam with the words 'post' if i didn't post anything for this post.

cheemology. need to re-learn my craft.

Rules & Regulation .People who are tagged, blog about their 10 weird habits / little facts.Choose 10 person to tag & list their names,No tagging back (:(i shall break this one)

I wake up at 8 on holidays.

I like waiting.

I don't like over-rated things.

I get crazy when in contact with human beings.

I eat alot yet never seem to grow fat.

I like choral music.

I think countertenors are castratis since they both sing high notes.

I cannot do household chores.

I have a neighbour has the exact same birthday and class as me.

I have a soft spot for bland food.

2nd quiz

1) The person who tagged me. MINGZHEN
2) Your relationship with him/her , CLASSMATES/CHOIRMATES/TABLE BBQ PEOPLE
3) Your impression of him/her , AUNTY AND EXTREMELY KAYPOH
4) The most memorable thing he/she has ever done for you, tell me all her little gossips
5) The most memorable thing he/she had said to you , her gossips?
6) If he/she become your lover , there is no if.(:7) If he/she become your lover , things he/she should improve on , not be my lover.
8) If he/she become your enemy , you will tell the world all her gossips.
9) If he/she become your enemy , the reason will be, she chose to become my enemy.
10) The most desired thing you want to do for him/her , buy me a birthday present.
11) Your overall impression of her , ok lah, can pass....
12) How do you think people around you will feel about you , a madman.
13) The characteristic(s) that you love about yourself , i like smiling. 14) On the contrary , you hate yourself of , being cocky and conceited.
15) The most ideal person you want to be , is there such a person who wants to be with me ? :O
16 ) For people who cares about & likes you , you really are very nice people.
17) Pass this quiz to 10 of your friends

1. Gladwin
2. Ming Zhen
3. Siewmun
4. Ryan
5. Adelynn
6. Biao Jin
7. Alicia
8. Lucas
9. Amos
10. Winnie

18) Who is number 6 ( Biao Jin ) having relationship with ? there's alot of water under the bridge. Jiamin, cheengyee, some other 2/4 girls and maybe even that specials omeone in choir. :X
19) Is number 9 (Amos) a male or female ?- Male
20) If number 7 & 10 ( Alicia and Winnie ) are together , will it be a good thing ? they are togerther already. and from what i know, it's a damn good thing.
21) What is number 2 ( Ming Zhen ) studying about ?- how to further expand accc/acgc/acdc?
22) When was the last time you have a chat with number 3 ( Siewmun ) ?- she asked me if we were taking pure geog and i said yes.
23) What kind of music band does number 8 (Lucas) likes ?- Wang Lee Hom, and all the other chinese bands out there.
24) Does number 1 ( Gladwin) have any siblings ?- older brother if i'm right.
25) Will you woo number 3 ( Siewmun ) ?- no thanks.
26) How about number 7 ( Alicia ) ?- no thanks.
27) Is number 4 ( Ryan ) single ?- As they say, it's complicated.
28) What is surname of number 5 ( Adelynn ) ?- Yong
29) What is hobby of number 4 (Ryan) ?- DOTA.
30) Does number 5 & 9 ( Adelynn and Amos) get along ?- as far as choirmates say hi and bye to each other during and after choir.
31) Where is number 2 ( Ming Zhen ) studying at ?- Anderson Secondary
32) Share something casual about number 1 ( Gladwin ) .- he's my ally and a devil with cards.
33) Have you ever developed feelings for number 8 (Lucas) - no thanks, i'm not a friggin gay.
34) Where does number 9 ( Amos ) live at ?- Admiralty.
35) What colour does number 3 ( Siewmun ) likes ?- if soulmates like the same things, then i think it would be orange.
36) Are number 1 & 5 ( Gladwin, Adelynn) best friends ?- i'm not sure. but they are friends though. 37) Does number 1 (Gladwin) have any pets ?- I don't think so.
38) Is number 7 ( Alicia ) the sexiest person in the world ?- beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.
39) What is number 10 ( Winnie ) doing now ?- Looking forward to tomorrow.

200 entries

short one. short one.

went to work today, though not part-time. flexible hours.

and earned $35 in one day. xP that's the equivalent of keying in 200 entries.

broke record. highest ever used to be 150.

and chioging maple at the same time. dear arcticed, level 68, 65%, one more level and 35% more before she achieves 3rd job.

i have been doing alot of thinking these past few days. thinking on how attitudes should be changed and yet retain the person's unique character at the same time.

a compromise to serve both personally and socially.

blackjack blunder

blackjack blunder.

sighs...shouldn't have been the dealer. i was donating money. but not to charity.

gladwin, my ally. haha. fun in photo wars, blackjack, big2 and best in maple. haha^^

soulmates. i probably shouldn't have started saying that word. now everyone's using that word.

i don't really have much to say. well, the consensus of almost everyone nowadays is that the holdiays are boring and there's nothing to do.

as i said, almost everyone.

have to go to work tomorrow since i took leave today. another 7 hours of stoning on front of the comp.

hey. but good money too. earned a hundred dollars so far.

then there's the maple chionging, and the studies chionging totally initiated by both by mother and my uncle.

you know that upper sec life is going to be hard and that's why you have to start your revision now...

as kindly and originally quoted by my dear mum.

yay. today was no doubt fun though.

acapella practices start on 22nd dec.

this love, superman, stand by me.

3rd day.

i figured out a way to get yourself out of sticky situations.

and it must be those kind of situations where people are still in doubt if you've done something wrong to them but still nevertheless, open up their mouths to say it.

it's easy. just be angry. after all, i was wrongly accused by bk. who popped up on me just to start accusing me of saying something bad about her.

honestly, i didn't. you can look at all my posts about her and they are posts that tell the absolute truth.

i think i'm telling truth.

truth and lies. i read a book covering those topics and the best view to take and accept is that everyone lies. be it white lies or lies used to scheme and plot a murder.

and that sometimes, using a lie to protect yourself in front of people might not be such a bad thing after all.

and i met mz and sm in the dg mrt station after work. you could say that i received a shock.

that's about it.

another job (:

haha. i got another job on the second day of my first job. and the pay sounds great. $8/hour.

and sadly, i still don't know how much my first job pays. my uncleis still keeping mum about it.

and my typing skills improved, though i'm largely still using wrong techniques to type. yay.

and i'm taking leave on friday. gam**ing session. i like censoring those 2 words. hmm....

it's still typing. typing. and typing.

TYPING!

first day of job.

now i know how my mum feels like everyday after work.

data entry. it's like nothing i've ever done before..

especially when you know that you can't intepret your dad's handwriting on a flimsy piece of paper the adults call an invoice.

and sitting on a chair for three hours straight, corroborating a scrawly written diary and notbooks filled with more invoices, trying to type all the information as comprehensive as possible in a totally alien software called Microsoft Access.

i'm working for my dad and uncle's co-owned small transport company. pay is still unknown. and i'm hoping just for a token sum. it's the experience that i'm after.

the workplace is at potong pasir and i need a minimum of 1 hour to travel there and another hour travelling back.

so tedious but yet, i love my job.

i won't call it part-time anymore. but i can call in leave anytime i like.

so are we having a gam**e session on wednesday>>gladwin