last day of june hols.

It's sad. In a few hour's time, it's gonna be june 29. ): Which is a monday. Which also happens to be the bleedy first day of term 3 2009.

Gawd, I haven't finished my homework and it's like 9.54p.m. or sth. Left with one geog level descriptor (copying in sch) and one 报章报道(doing tomorrow night or during lessons. And if there's graphical solutions that we must do, then I guess I'll have to add that on my very long list. ._.

Though choir's cancelled tomorrow, my afternoon is booked watching transformers. Way to go jinhu, you still have that 报章报道 to finish because chinese is first period on tuesday and you're spending that afternoon on a show that only got half out of five stars in the movie rating on the 24 June 2009 Life section of the Straits Times Paper.

But you people said it's freaking nice so I'm going to watch it in the cinema though I can watch it free on pps. Sadly, someone spoiled the show for me already. I'm just going to the cinema to be wowed by the effects.

jinhu is still not sure if he should waste his afternoon watching transformers. Ok maybe he should. Then he can chiong that 报章报道 during class tomorrow. :X

combined choir rehearsal 1

Hey peeps! I'm back from CCAB! And it was quite fun today I guess.

Biaojin's dad gave me a lift there and back or else I'd have no choice but to take the nearest bus 15mins walk away. It's that ulu. Bukit Timah, rich man's estate. Everyone residing there must have owned at least a car lah. Still, thanks a million!

Did sectionals on the 284-bars Singapore Medley. We did it sitting down. And complete the whole thing in one hour. Pro huh? Ok lah, that's a warped truth. There were like 50 bars of rest, it's slightly repetitive and in 2/4 timing for the first half, I think.

Ondeh ondeh, lenggang kangkung, kopi susu and jinklong nona. The sound quality was freaking nice. "All the gold and gold with honours school go send their crème de la crème there", according to the organiser. OK lah, no comments. But I saw yujun there again. And he's the only non-anderson person that I recognize so don't worry mz.

Lunch was savoury though there were no fried or spicy food. Yum.

I just got my NEBO card. It came this morning. Homework wise, I'm left with one geog paper, two level descriptor questions, the kranji assignment and 2 Zuowens to be complete tmr. Wah, ultimate sianness. I don't think I can complete everything by tmr. I give up. It's just too much. I think only one bao zhang bao dao will be done tmr. Yeah, that's what I predict. So I really need my homework mood to be maxed for tomorrow.

Completed an entry to be submitted for some Olympics Literature Competition. It's crap but its' the best I can do at midnight.

H1N1, i wished you'd extend the hols.

I wished that H1N1 can extend the hols. Even if it's just for one more day. It's that desperate.

Homework done: All Maths, English, Chemistry, Physics, Biology, two geog papers, 5 level descripted questions and 3 综合填空.

Left with: 1 geog paper, 2 level descripted questions, two english writing competitions(i only want take part in one),the rest of the 综合填空(10?) and 2报章报道.

Like all the holidays before, the leftover homework is predominantly chinese. Becaus after all those years, I still don't like doing chinese homework. But it's so important. Well, at least to me. I know my chinese really is like crap. Sian. And 'O' level oral starts 2 July. What was I thinking?

I wasn't thinking. This won't have happened if I thought. Really, now is really the time when I need to speak chinese like a chinese. Probably the only time it ever felt so important. At least that's what I'm feeling now.

我有个要求。如果您听我说错话， 请帮我修改。 谢谢!

I'm not sure if that's even right gramatically. Pffffft.

Why do I need that one more day? Because I'm watching transformers with gladwin tomorrow, oing for combined choir's rehearsel on saturday and am only free on sunday. And I doubt that I'll have enought mood and patience to ride out so much homework on sunday. Guess I'll have to squeeze in homework time and time.

I think it's the stress. Check up on wednesday, everything was ok.

squirming, what's going on?

I feel slightly uncomfortable. Be it the sultry weather, the afternoon nap and the fact that I didn't do any homework today.

You are the moon played for 10 times already. It's such a surreal and dreamy song that floats in and out. Because sometimes, you are the moon.

Shadows all around you as you surface from the dark
Emerging from the gentle grip of night's unfolding arms
Darkness, darkness everywhere, do you feel all alone?
The subtle grace of gravity, the heavy weight of stone

You don't see what you possess, a beauty calm and clear
It floods the sky and blurs the darkness like a chandelier
All the light that you possess is skewed by lakes and seas
The shattered surface, so imperfect, is all that you believe

I will bring a mirror, so silver, so exact
So precise and so pristine, a perfect pane of glass
I will set the mirror up to face the blackened sky
You will see your beauty every moment that you rise

I like the lyrics. They sound nice.

There was chem extra lesson today and I spent the whole 2.5 hours crapping with the captain of track&field, drum major of band and president of choir. Yeah, I was feeling pretty inferior all over again. Haha, jkjk. But it was fun again though I think ms yep was pretty pissed off. :X

Went to kaicong's house later. I spend the whole afternoon, watching american idol critics and freezing in the room. It was raining and the room was like a freezer. Catching the 962 bus home brings back memories. Of a tiny little kid called jinhu back then.

you are the moon.

You are the moon. I'm putting it on a replay. Another quality product by the hush sound.

Choir was ok today since jesslynn is finally back so I get to slack more. Then we had a cappella plans underway. It's so early compared to last year lol when we were told at the end of the year. But it's better this way. And there are those speeches that we have to make at the end of every choir session. First time sia.

The best part is that I don't need to go for auditions. (: Haha, be jealous!

Adelynn and alex came to my house for my sis's last piano lesson for the hols. And it's interesting to play chess with juniors. Interesting.

Watchd drag me to hell with gladwin, bj, mz, sm, carey and by. So I admit that it was the first time I watched a horror movie in front of my peers. Yeah, it was a scene of bad habits. LOL. Like how some people used the phone during the show to distract themselves from the horror ahead.

But it really was great for a horrow movie. No wonder it was no. 1 box office hit in the US. You really can have trust in US's taste in movies. (Remembers Taken)

Damn, I just heard that we won't be getting our extended holidays due to swine flu. I wished we did. Then we'll have more time to finish homework. Yeah, I'm guilty.

At least I've completed the homework that we'd gotta pass up during tomorrow's extra chem lesson. (:

a free ride down my tourist eyes.

Yay, I'm here to talk about thursday. Thursday first.

I WENT TO SINGAPORE FLYER, UNDERWATER WORLD, FORT SILOSO, IMAGES OF SINGAPORE, 4D MAGIX AND CABLE CAR RIDE TO MOUNT FABER FOR FREE.

And by free here, I mean totally no expenses. Not even mama paid anything. The two cards privilege cards my uncle had did the trick. (:

Ok, I admit that I was dead beat by time I reached home. Like damn tired. :/ Maybe worse than my cousins who are 10 or more years younger. I'm growing old.

But I slept at 12 because I was busy watching 大冬瓜. It's some cantonese period drama which I'm currently addicted to. Recommended by mum so no harm watching. It had chinese subtitles. I'm that desperate to improve my chinese and cantonese. Started on wednesday. Just finished episode 14.

I haven't touched my homework for 4 days. And it's because I'm a big lazy pig. -.- Even in attending to my restaurant in RC. The ratings plummet from 3.57 to 3.07! By 0.5 points. It's very depressing. After having a triple ten combo, it's so much less inspiring to continue striving on. Even for the sake of redecoration and refurbishment. Ironically, it was after my 10k refurbishment did the ratings start dropping. Retracing my former footsteps was a worse decision. The ratings continued to dip. ):

There has to be another form of entertainment to distract me. TV, checked. Books, checked. (revolutionary road is still untouched) PC, not yet checked. (there's dota for backup) Homework, tried not to check. (chinese, geog ._.)

The Hush Sound has invaded my radiowaves. Currently listening to You are the moon. xP The lighthouse MV was nice. Recommended. I still wonder if the shaky camcorder used was on purpose or because of budget constaints. Like Mayday parade, the hush sound is yet another under-appreciated band. More should be done to promote and spread their music to the general public.

More should be done.

wildwildwet.

I feel like a very very bad friend. ): Someone who forces his compatriots on deeds they'd rather not do and receive punishment they do not deserve at times. All for the sake for a rather selfish motive. So that me, myself and I can have a good time on what seems like my last free day.

Ok, at least they had a fun fun day too. All elaborations shall be kept to a minimum because I'm feeling like a zombie already. But it was very fun! And it pays to have your mother working in downtown east. Literally.

Samsung Slide Up was the BEST! OK, that's really no news but a first-hand experience does confirm what many others have said already. The queues were moderately short today so it was quite pleasing. Imagine having to wait an hour for every ride. Everyone will be so damn pissed that they won't have the mood to have fun.

And I saw juniors there. I mean the new sec 1s one. They bully their seniors on the pretext of having fun. LOL. I'm still thinking about what we should do on friday to sabo them. Hahaha. (evil laughter)

I just screened through the statistics for semester 1 results and I did pretty badly for almost everything. Oh no. Must improve! Since there's no other reason holding me back now.

Homework situation is still ok considering that I finished more than half during week 1, barely did anything for week 2 and am in the middle of week 3 with still that one-third more to go. Problem is that the one-third is mainly content-heavy geog and chinese I am still strugging with. O:

This isn't very good.

when you get scolded for being too nice.

This is the first time in my life I got scolded for being nice. Too nice.

Yeah, don't try to re-read the lines. This really is the first time in my life I got scolded for being too nice.

It all happened today at approx. 10.15a.m. When ms lim was walking past the tenors when they were doing sectionals on potong padi. Grrr. BJ was ok lah. He knew what he was doing, grade 8 in piano and all and again, I was standing there like some mannequin, posing. Because like always, I'm not sure what's happening thanks to my inability in translating scores and dissecting them like a pro, not like any tenor SL in the past. (Points to BJ and thinks about seb) Well, I'm not one anyway, just a stand-in until holy comes back from vietnam. And with that being said, jesslynn is currently spending her time having fun in obs and I would have to stand in too until she comes back too.

Please come back soon. Like a fish out of water, I went back to staring into a piece of paper I cannot comprehend.

"As vice president, you cannot be too nice to them like Sebastian"

"BJ is ok. You're not ok."

"You must make them respect you as their vice president..."

I kinda think the last sentence of what ms lim said was most resounding. Yeah, no more being too nice to them and actually earning some respect. That being said too, Note to self: Keep cool and don't make funny faces. Seriously.

Watched the whole choir play grandmother's footsteps. Yeah, I couldn't play. ):

Poached gladwin about his lady gaga experience yesterday but there wasn't much that he said. Save for lady gaga's performing ethnics and the commercial element of it all. Scooted off to adelynn's house with my sis. It's her piano lesson today.

Boggled, crapped and homeworked within a span of 5 hours. I had fun. And I got to play. (:

Playing makes such a huge difference in my quality of life. And just after I said that, I'm declaring tomorrow as my homework day. Yeah, HOMEWORK DAY.

an irreconcilable disparity.

Hi world, jinhu's back.

While gladwin is rocking his ass off at lady gaga's concert, I wonder what you people are doing. Spamming maple or reading a book in peace? I spent the last three nights studying trigo and make sure that a geog question is done everyday.

Guilt still creeps in sometimes. Not much is done for those disappointing grades. Because after looking all around, I realised that that may be the only anchor left. The rest have either broke or rust or in any other way, have been rendered dysfunctional and unreliable.

This reminds me, I have to brush up on my languages too. ZZZ.

I should be happy, satisfied and content and I am. It's just that certain facts poke at me and I can't help but to review the situation. Though it's just a word apart, the disparity between those terms seem irreconcilable. Certain privileges are bestowed on those who were chosen and the second choice is just another second fiddle. It happens in all aspects of society, in the corporate world and even in our community. They say, get used to it. But I wasn't prepared. Not one bit but now I understand why.

Concede to fate and make the best of what you have. Seize your opportunities and hold them tight. Strive to be a better person in the future and aim only for brilliance and excellence. If not, don't even attempt it. You'll just be wasting your time.

Last but not least, enjoy life and appreciate every second of it even if you don't enjoy every second for it. And that's just one key to a fulfilling life.

I'm trying to live by this philosophy. It sounds hard but the fruits are rewarding enough. Maybe one day, I'll get my big break.

"As prisoned birds must find in freedom winging wildly."

where's the president when you need her most?

When you start feeling nervous because the president won't be here.

Tomorrow.

Why? There's always a first for many. I'm uncertain. Not like I never was.

on the bottom rung of the glamometer.

Footprints on the boardwalk.

It's just an ancient bottle.

This was evidence of us in the library.....studying!

Siewmun saw me on TV last night on the news.

I was chased by aruna and gladwin during these few days for pics.

The similarity between those two is that all are unglam. But it's alright. I've learnt to grow with it. I just don't expect too many of it on facebook. :O And on the same note, aruna's going to be killed by the president.

SDC workshop on monday and tuesday was entertaining. Still, the funniest part was suanning the only non-chinese in anderson team. Damn funny, I could laugh for ages. It was so damn hilarious. The five of us pretended to be tour guides of SDC and crapped alot of bullshit, especially about chemistry and its dubious links with NE! Haha! And it was pohseng's birthday yesterday too. Birthday boy sure was happy with a free meal.

And that free meal was at KFC and cost $52.80. Mr Poh paid for it as usual. I still haven't forgotten the apple pie and brownies at the me forum. He paid for that too. Bottom-line: He's rich. And kinda nice too, though I'm sure the rest of us would appreciate if we receive reminders and information a few days or maybe a week before the actual event and not just on the day itself. :X

But it was still a good treat and he's still a nice teacher. I don't mind him teaching us SS and history.

Then there was today where the four of us in a pic went to bishan library to......study! We did study, though not just study. It feels great to go out and play again!

Had the godlike hokkien mee for lunch again at vivo. And we met up with beiying later too. Then crapped alot. And me and gladwin were playing like kids, making wet footprints on the boardwalk. But it was fun. The whole day was fun but I feel like fainting soon cause I'm tired after waking up like **** every morning for the past few days.

YAWNS!

week one over.

The cold bug struck. It made it difficult to finish maths homework. But all maths homework was finally finished. Yay. With most credit to my uncle again for whom without, I still may be stuck at Q8 of A maths hols assignment.

I did nothing else other than that and that seems rather pathetic. Shall chiong geography next week and complete at least half of all chinese homework. Shall also start revising more maths too. SA1 convinced me to work harder.

And play harder too. There won't be anytime to play after holidays end and this is when we must make full use of playtime. I'm afraid that a few months down the road, the reflection staring back at me is a hardcore geek.

The nightmare gets scarier each time, as each foot sinks one step deeper. Week one is over. I don't feel very accomplished. There's just so much to do. And so little mood. Oh, and time too.

And when I think of Chinese, I shudder. Because I don't know what I'm going to do about it. And they always say that humans in general are afraid of the unknown. It's true and it's false as the same time. To be able to embrace the unexpected is what adds the zest to life. Love life and let live.

Oh, and I got a post in committee too. And since you'll all know what I got eventually I'll just post it here so less people will ask me about it. Or maybe not. :X

I promise I'll do my best. Oh, and it will be strange not to mark ticks on the attendance list all scribble something on the whiteboard. It's someone else's job now, not mine. Phew, like finally. I'm tired anyway.

this crystallization.

Copper (II) Sulfate Crystals othewise known as...


...the glacial ring!

At least that was the name I gave to my crystals. I like the fact that they look like icicles poking into the center. It's so...defensive.

The extra lessons in the holidays have ended! Wah, but some were ok while others were plain boring.

Though lessons have ended, homework hasn't. We got even more homework from mr fadz. Yikes, and there are two ace learning assignments which xianlong proclaimed that he had done them, once again by flashing pages of his completed assignment. LOL. Now that adds up to a considerable amount of homework.

There are implications to things. No thing in this world comes without a string attached. Somehow or the other. When you get a free meal, the treat would be expected to be reciprocated and that's just natural. I've been wondering.

Just like how we finally get our positions in choir, there are implications.

At least the choir now has a head and that head is jesslynn! Hehe, kinda expected it so no surprise really. It's just a matter of time. And adelynn turned out great too! Conductor and Sop SL sia. Both hold two important posts in choir so the string attached here is the heavy responsibility. Still, I'm happy for them though.

It's just that anderson choir is so girl-dominant. No offence to anyone in the com really. Just a thought. It's not that it's bad that there are talented people running the com, it's just that co-ed school should somewhat be equal in terms of most things. But I'm used to it after being in choir for like 2+ years. It's just the way things work here. No complaints.

Haha, I won the 4 bucks from gladwin! Lol, no kick at all. Some of my predictions were right and some weren't. In any case I'm glad I'm not tenor SL since I can't teach for nuts.

Mingzhen, I don't think I owe you any money. Being secretary is better than getting my hard earned 5 bucks. And it's good that siewmun's librarian. Hehehehe...

Something sad happened yesterday. Cheer up!

And there's NHSS today. My 'formal' suit was too casual but I liked it anyway. There's no way I was gonna wear school uniform or choir costume, something which I contemplated. The place is posh, at the swissotel and that gave a very good impression. And then again, I'm glad I had lunch at home. Because for a place as posh as the swissotel, you'd never expected that there weren't any reception or a mini high tea spread. The closest thing was perhaps a 10 mins interval where you either go to the toilet or drink the plain water that they provide. Oh, there were mint sweets too. But that's really the closest.

The speech by the guest of honour was such a lullaby. It didn't help that I didn't catch much sleep last night. blah, blah, blah. I understood less than 20% of what he said and remembered less that 5%.

Turns out that vice exec for new media, comission 3 is yu jun. He's the president of RVHS choir and is in sec 4 this year. But what amazed me most was that he is a Bass 2(compares with gladwin). nice personality, better voice. I'm looking forward to seeing him at the combined choir soon. Haha.

The whole summit was interesting and lethargic at the same time. Funny at times and interesting always. Can't help it that that places was a mini tundra and was a really good place to yawn...

Returned home with courteney and huixiang after snacking at Chippy, British takeaway. That's some good fast food.

I haven't eaten dinner. My mum's gonna kill me if I don't do so now. So byebye. (:

speaking chinese like an angmoh.

Damn, I speak Chinese like an angmoh.

Even the teacher says that I sound like some foreign exchange student. And the oral grades are very disappointing and that's to say the least. It's a bleedy C. Damn really, what's happening?

Maybe it's a blessing in disguise. I felt such a burning desire to run home and mug everything just after I got back the results. Hope that stays till after 'O' levels or something. And for the third damn, the real 'O' levels Chinese oral is just weeks away. Now really, what's happening?

Courteney took a deep stance in her definitions of dignity. I'll break down mine simply. You lose your dignity when you can't connect back to your roots.

Sighs. Really disappointed.

Anyway, lunched with lionel today before xianlong, huixiang, tianning, jingfang and jiaqin joined us. 7 people squeezed on a tiny table meant for 4. It feels good to talk about dota. It feels interesting. Then trained home with xianlong and huixiang. Inferiority complex awakened.

Sandwiched between the captain of track and field and the captain of table tennis. Squashed by the heated debates over 'advanced' intellectual discussions. (quotation marks used due to my inability in understanding what they were talking about) Bombarded by suannings and comparisons over results.

I don't think it was the wisest decision going home with them. But it was definitely fun.

Venus stands for the Roman goddess of love. Now that's interesting.

So is my sister's first piano lesson tomorrow. I'm looking forward.

when you have no plans.

When you have no plans for the June Hols, it's pretty dumb. I'm feeling pretty dumb right now.

Choir was ok today. Tenors didn't get scolded much so I guess everything's still ok, under control. Oh well, at least for tenors. I'm sorry for the other sections though. :X

I don't really know what to blog. And I'd just finished writing a whole new first chapter of a pet project for this hols called, When Venus meets a mortal. Not releasing it here until I complete the whole story.

You can ask me if you want to read it though. (:

This is sianness. There's so much to do yet so little time. Like homework. Like revision. Geekified.

the start of the start of a not so start.

The start of a start of a not so start.

The holidays are here, that's a start. But it's not the first day of the holidays so it's a not so start.

LOL.

Whatever happened? I haven't been blogging for 5 days already. No thanks to familiarising myself with dota. I played till 1 this morning. Gosh. And I was just playing with the AI. (Looks away with deviant eyes)

Chionging restaurant city. But still no match. No match at all. And for the first time, my popularity hits 46! Yay.

I don't really feel like posting in pretty english today. Nah, no, I really don't feel like it.

The comp in my room takes such a long time to load that I managed to finish a whole maths worksheet while waiting for it to load during the 3 games I was playing. ._.

I can't enter maple because my sister accidentally caused the whole account to be suspended. -.-

I returned 4 of my library books because I know that I probably won't find time to read them at all. All thanks to online games.

The books which I bought a week ago are still wrapped in plastic because I couldn't even finish my library books, let alone read the ones I bought.

There's higher chinese oral practice on thursday or is it wednesday? Don't know. The teachers are probably going to think that I emigrated from some western country, judging on the standard of my very dismal colloquial chinese.

There's also choir tomorrow and I'm not sure what's going to happen. I really don't know. It's going to be a surprise. I won't be late. And maybe I'll be early.

NHSS is on this coming saturday. I passed up my NHSS assignment on sunday, one day late. Really, I don't have a knack for being punctual. Wardrobe malfunction. I've been meaning to ask, is there such a term? Anyway, my mum went along to buy formal clothes needed for that that event. And the best part is that I don't have to fork out a cent. Haha.

I wonder where the 8 bucks went.